Each time i open this page, with the intention to note down my thoughts and feelings; i start off with rather strong motivation. But 95% of the time, i close it in the same manner i opened it. This, has to change. And the desire to change, isn't alien to me. I have vowed to change, multiple times. Countless times.
I feel the need for this. To note down. To express. To have a time of my own. To tell myself the things i have been thinking about. To materialize my thoughts and emotions. I need this.
I really do.
Just came back from the ancient city of Kyoto. Watched it glows in red, golden and yellow. Along with half of the nation, of course. I do agree that it was rather spectacular. But the crowd of which we have to brave makes everything less worthy. And the photographers; range from 5 years old (or less) to well over 75. This, is Japan during seasonal holiday. Especially Kyoto in autumn (spring too). Photos when i return home to process them. All in all, i think i have gotten myself what i came for, but still i have to admit that i have not really quenched my thirst for a shot worthy enough to close the chapter. Perhaps, the crowd. Or is it just me and my insufficient skills.
Still, like all trips; the company makes all the difference. And with her, i guess it's good enough for me.
I guess i should really start studying for my Japanese test.
