Face-off

Take me away

Away from my body and mind

For my body weakens and fails You

And my mind wanders away from You

My heart tires to pump

And my lungs laze

This suffocation is familiar

In the past darkest days

It does not matter what i do

Or where i am

Or who i talk to

Pain may ease but never retire

Breathing becomes an effort

Thoughts no longer a choice

Words do not originate from mind

I can no longer choose how i am to be

Evasion gave me yesterday's laughter

Reality drowned me in today's chilling water

There is none left to blame

None but myself

Give me the strength to set things right

Many times willed; none conceded

The coming dawn makes every hour counts

This is the first step to the final attempt.